It's been a while since I checked in...mainly because typing hurts me now with my hands failing. I have a test on my neck and middle spine tomorrow, it's a CT Milogram done with sedation since I have such bad anxiety about having needles put into my spine, they will inject dye into my spine at the neck and thoracic area and then take CT scans to evaluate the condition of the spine in those areas. The reason for this is because they think I have more bulging discs and that is what is making my hands hurt and quit working as well as my left arm. I can't even get back up the ramp at my house anymore on my own...so if nobody is home to help me, I can't leave the house. I can't check the mail and I can't sit in the yard to enjoy a nice day. On Monday, I will be having surgery to remove an encapsulated tumor from my abdomen. I am going to be so happy to have this gone as I can't eat many things, small portions only or I risk getting sick...sometimes I get sick even if I eat NOTHING...the tumor makes it feel like I've been stabbed by a hot icepick, my abdomen feels like it's on fire and the pressure is intense...it hurts so bad that my face goes flush and I have to hurry for the pink hospital bucket or I risk having a mess to clean up. Prayers are apprecaited, I just want my hands to work again or for them to decide to give me something electric to get around on so I can leave the house on my own.