so i;ve got my Girl and she's amazing. we've been together for awhile now and i honestly can't imagine a better woman to compliment me and complete me. i tell her this every day. i wake up and before i even ask for coffee i tell her she's amazing and that i love her. we have never once gone to bed mad at each other, not once. i am a hard man and i am a pain to live with but she manages to handle it each and every day. it's been like this for going on 2 years now and i can't imagine it ever changing without me ending my life if i disappoint her for longer than half a heart beat. if i were going to marry a woman it would be her. with that said i once had a high school love and we never had our chance. now she's single and in town, and she's interested to see where we could wind up. she knows where i am in life, i know where she is in life. i care, she dosen't. Girl knows exactly what's going on because i told her as soon as the phone rang. she gets it but she knows where i'm going to crash every night. the high school love was a love because we were best friends. we grew up together, we went to school together, we supported each other over the phone after high school. she wasn't just a babe, she was a friend. now between her and Girl i am almost torn. but i made the right choice and i'm sticking with Girl. we've talked about this and i've filled her in 100%. unfortunately i've also informed the high school love who didn't tke it so well. she's cursed me as a heartless bastard. it sucks but it is what it is. i hate to lose her as a friend but i have to stay true to the one i truly love. i've literally laid in a gravel parking lot bleeding waiting for an ambulance while this chick held my head and sang to me. she's put up with all my **** including sitting up with me while my nightmares wrecked my head and i physically mule kicked her out of the bed. i love her, i don't have a choice any more than she does in loving me right back. it just sucks that i had to lose a hell of a friend in the process even though losing her proves that she wasn't much of a friend in the first place. sorry, i just needed to get it off my chest to someone that's not biased and my best friend is out of town and away from his phone right now.