Knowing you gave her the best life possible can in a small way somewhat mitigate your loss. I have 3 dogs and 2 cats and if I ever strike it rich would have many, many more. My oldest cat "Iggy" went to kitty heaven a year ago. I still miss him a lot. If I ever see a cat on the street that resembles him I will have 3 dogs and 3 cats again. My heartfelt condolences.