I don't want to incessantly ramble about this, but whatever. We met online, she lived 3 hours away, we're both in our 20s, although she was married to a 46 year old, and had a child with him. She never held a job the entire time I knew her, blaming it on her small town. I paid for everything, not that I'm ever complained about it, but I did want her to get a job for self-esteem and of course, money for her daughter. She lives at home and doesn't pay rent, using what little child support money she gets on various things. We were together over a year-in that time span, she broke up with me 5 times. Things such as, me sleeping too much because at the time I worked 3rd shift, and also because I didn't want to propose to her, because despite my love for her, I knew we weren't stable enough as a couple, to get married. I did everything I could to keep her. I bought a newer car, specifically so I could make the trip to see her, because that was important to her. She was often times quite demanding, if there was something she wanted me to buy her, and I hesitated, she would throw a fit and leave the store. She has/had extremely low self-esteem, due to her thin frame and lack of well...boobs. I never once said this was an issue, but she never listened. All of her relationships prior to ours ended badly, she didn't know what it was like to be with someone who treated her well. Basically, I dont understand why she left me, I truly hope it wasn't because I didnt want to marry her, at least not after dating for 6 months. Lately, I've been thinking about her. It's been a long time since she left me, but the sting is still there. I still feel the need to protect her or whatever, because I'm pretty sure she's going to end up with another " Bad " guy. I've resisted the urge to contact her. Maybe it's just the holidays...or maybe it's boredom because I haven't dated anyone since her. Who knows. Oh yeah, for what it's worth, all of my friends stated she was out of her mind, and I'm better off without her.