Yeah it ****ed me & my wife up. I don't see any point in denying it. But there's no plan B to jump to, you have to get up and make coffee, and you're still you in the mirror. I've got two other kids that needed dad to keep making dinero, which sounds like a burden but I guess it helped with the whole 'having a purpose' thing. The oldest, adopted stepson from my wife's first marriage, looks like he's going career enlisted USAF. He's in his sixth year and got married a couple years ago, so I think he's in for the duration now. His call. Our daughter is 17yo, bilingual in English & Japanese, her end of semester grades have been straight A's since 7th grade, and this year she got into the National Honors Orchestra on violin (which, unfortunately the event got cancelled due to Covid, but the thing is she made the cut.) Doing ok, in the totality of the circumstances. Something'll work out. I know some people who know some people. Love you too, man. Thank you guys, the above and anyone else who had kind words or thoughts. But it's off topic .... what's happening in Louisville??!??