Greetings fellow brothers. I am a 32 degree master mason and what some may call a (DUES) paying member. I was raised in 97 and my last visit to lodge was in 98. I'm 32 now and I would like to get back into a lodge. But I feel ashamed that I haven't been in a lodge for so long. Being a mason means a lot to me. I am a 4 gen mason in my family and eastern star on the womens side. The one thing I will never forget is when i was raised they let my dad raise me. So in the back of my head some stupid thing keeps saying they will be mad that i've been gone so long, Sounds stupid I know but I worry alot.