Not sure how I got to this point. My mom has no idea what is going on. Not that she would understand, as she is from a very different generation. My wife has a clue, and as always, she is very supportive, but I fear for her as well, as she has expressed some disdain for my activity, but does not see any harm in occasionally sampling. This did not happen instantly. It kinda crept up on me. Today I woke up with the realization that I am indeed hooked. Not sure if I there is a means of dealing with this. I am too stubborn and "manly" to sit in a mampy pampy support group to talk about how I feel. Well glad I got that off my chest.