Ok so lets look at this premise of yours. First you are carrying a 5# trigger with internal safety features, not no safety. Not like putting a cocked revo in your pants. Btw, A manual safety means crap as to a ND. All ND are shooter errors & negated with training. How do you invision your ND happening? While holstering? Training. While presenting? You are more likely to shoot your hand chambering a round than just presenting the fully loaded weapon. You can justify your fear anyway ypu like but if there is any chance of an attack, I want my gun to be ready, I want my skill level to exceed the attackers because I certainly will be reactive. I think I have made my point quite clear. You my friend are the one in denial about your training, skill, ability & fear. Otherwise you would not be so afraid of something you actually have 100% control of. Where as in an attack, you will have virtually no control of until you can get your weapon into the fight. 100% vs 0%, seems pretty simple.