I am sorry to hear this 219Paul. It is never easy and the fact that we have to make the choice for them is even harder. I am sure you feel guilt on top of everything else you are feeling, but be assured you made the right choice. He is out of pain and in a much better place.........I think if he could, he would thank you. Really.
Many years ago, our beloved Pretzel Marie the Wonder Mutt contracted pancreatitis and passed away.
I, like you, was sad and felt guilty about crying.
One evening the phone rang. It was a friend, a crusty old Cajun pawnbroker named Jesse.
"Hoss," he said, "I just called to tell you it's OK to cry. Let it out. You'll feel better, and, don't worry, you'll see Pretzel again someday. Dogs go to heaven, too. I still cry for one of mine that I lost, but don't tell NO one!" He hung up.
And I cried, and felt better. And, though Jesse has long gone to be with his pup, his words still comfort me.