Does anyone else ever have this conundrum? I want to carry some of Buffalo Bore's FBI load in my 442, but I just can't make that decision based on my personal needs. I know that the Buffalo Bore 158 grain +p LSWCHP is probably the nastiest round you can carry in a snubby .38, yet it doesn't make sense for me personally. The recoil was pretty damn bad, and personally it felt like it almost broke my gun, even though I know it didn't. I know that I could probably get better with that load if I shot it more, but the easier to manage recoil and quicker follow up shots means that for the foreseeable future I will probably continue to carry the Speer short barrel Gold Dot. In my mind I am just a big fan of the numbers that the FBI load produces, and the wallop it packs. Curious to hear if anyone else suffers from this dilemma of sorts, and what their particular loads are. Not looking for advice; I just want to see what loads people are interested in but choose to not carry!