I apologize I don't remember the name of the GT member who recommended this. He mentioned it neck deep in some deteriorating thread a few weeks ago. I listened to what he said, found it to be thoughtful, and went on amazon and ordered this book: http://www.amazon.com/Meditations-V...=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1263960819&sr=8-1 The book arrived today, and seeing as we're snowed in and I had some time off of work, I started reading it. I just finished. Didn't put it down from the time I picked it up. Almost every margin is littered with notes. I don't know how to describe it other than by saying the following things: 1. Every person--and especially anyone who is interested in their own self defense-- needs to read this book. I've never said that about any other book, as good as some are (more often than not they're worthless, IMO). 2. This book is not about "tactics" as much as it's about violence--how complex it is, what it does to us mentally and physiologically, what are the patterns behind it, and how impossible it is to prepare for it. 3. It was absolutely the most interesting and useful "self-defense" read I've ever picked up. But it's not just interesting. It is necessary stuff to think through. I don't know how to say it much more clearly than that. When you read the description, it almost seems like it was written for "martial arts experts who need to learn that dojo training is nothing like real life violent encounters". And that's true. But that's just an audience for him to focus on for the sake of clarity. This book is absolutely written for anyone who carries or trains with firearms and intends to protect themselves should the need arise. A last comment from me... there was one part that I found particularly affecting. In one section he spends time talking about the "cocktail"... the chemicals that affect you when you get into a violent/intense situation and how it affects you. Amazing discussion and a lot to process. One of the examples he used was of Deputy Kyle Dinkheller. It's an old video and it's probably been jambog'd and debated here as much as the "Glock Fortay" video. But as much as I'd heard about it, I had never REALLY watched it. He mentioned that one tendency for people in high adrenaline situations to display is "behavioral looping". And in debriefings, many (even experienced guys) don't even realize they were doing it. So I watched the video again, carefully, and saw the concept he was talking about as Dinkheller just kept looping his warnings even until he was shot at (and after, actually). Chilling stuff. It's easy to just dismiss him as "stupid" or to think we wouldn't have done that. But the point was, even well trained guys can do that. It's a normal response with some. Because you cannot train for that sort of situation (with real threat and real surprise, and real speed, and real adrenaline dealing with THAT particular situation.) you can only know how you'll respond when you're there. It's not about training, per se, but about awareness (maybe more like active awareness). Hit me to the bone. Dinkheller video again, just for reference: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GX5kwVc9IOk Anyway, I cannot recommend this book enough. Even if you're not a reader, you won't be able to put this book down.