I don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe it will be helpful to me or someone else. I'm sure all of us have that one call that haunts us. That one call that we just can't forget at will.
Mine is a rape where I was initial responding. I couldn't help wonder if their wasn't one damn thing I might have done that would have prevented it. I don't know and I know it isn't healthy thinking but I guess I can't help it. Normally I wipe most of work out of my mind while I'm off but I can't help thinking of this one. It wasn't the first rape/sexual assault call I've had but the details of how she was already living in fear of her neighbors knowing just the kind of area she was living in really struck me. It's an area I'm already very agressive in but it just raises that thought all the same. What could I have done possibly to prevent this?
It is also the reason I took time off this weekend. Felt I needed extra time to clean guns, hang out with normal people, and get my mind right again. I actually feel a bit better and am going to sleep soon so I can hit the range to instruct some early.
What is your call you can't seem to get out of your mind?
Mine is a rape where I was initial responding. I couldn't help wonder if their wasn't one damn thing I might have done that would have prevented it. I don't know and I know it isn't healthy thinking but I guess I can't help it. Normally I wipe most of work out of my mind while I'm off but I can't help thinking of this one. It wasn't the first rape/sexual assault call I've had but the details of how she was already living in fear of her neighbors knowing just the kind of area she was living in really struck me. It's an area I'm already very agressive in but it just raises that thought all the same. What could I have done possibly to prevent this?
It is also the reason I took time off this weekend. Felt I needed extra time to clean guns, hang out with normal people, and get my mind right again. I actually feel a bit better and am going to sleep soon so I can hit the range to instruct some early.
What is your call you can't seem to get out of your mind?