[gyfgyf]

Hi LW,
Just checking in. I have been away for awhile with no internet access.
All the best in your "journey" and the latest trials and tribulations. As I understand it, we have to postpone our dinner at the Italian restaurant for a little bit. I see that you are changing your travel plans.
Thanks,
Gyfgyf

[gyfgyf]

Hi LW,
I have been away for awhile with no internet access.
I see that you have changed your travel plans and we have to change our dinner date.
Thanks,
Gyfgyf

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

I just found out that one of the guys killed had ties to my town.

http://bigcountryhomepage.com/fulltext/?nxd_id=430157

I'm not quite sure why they said he "died in an accident".

Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. Prayers going up for his family.

Originally Posted by gyfgyf

Hi LW,
Just checking in. I have been away for awhile with no internet access.
All the best in your "journey" and the latest trials and tribulations. As I understand it, we have to postpone our dinner at the Italian restaurant for a little bit. I see that you are changing your travel plans.
Thanks,
Gyfgyf

Yep, big change. I'll damn sure take that rain check on the dinner plans, I'll really want some good Italian food after I get out of there. Thanks for the good wishes.

Originally Posted by MB-G26

Ya know sweetie, if'n the whole 'stay there' aspect becomes the full reality, you ARE gonna have to break down and get another Hajji-cell phone, right? : whistling:

Hope you get to feeling as "better" as "better" gets under the whole of the circumstance!!

::::::::::::::hugs!::::::::::::::::::

Yeah, I'll be trying to get my phone working once I'm wherever I'm going to be. I'm working on the feeling better part, so is my doc and terrorist. Shrink too, from the mental part of it. My doc went ahead and raised my Fentanyl dose to the max. He'd said he was hoping to avoid that, but didn't like the amount of pain I've been having. (Neither do I!) My terrorist slacked off on his abuse the last couple days, he said he can't really prep me to travel anymore, I just have to be careful and hope I don't aggravate my injury. My shrink, well, she's got her hands full. Give her credit though, she's trying to help with the fear and nihgtmares. She keeps trying to tell me I don't have to do this, but I feel like I do. After all, I said I would.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Sorry about the PM. I think I pretty much covered it on an email to you. It seems like forever since then.
Hunting through emails to see if I can find anything about what we were talking about before. Only thing I can find is mention that my Inbox is full again and the Rangers are ahead in the series. Guess that’s a little out of date, eh?

I heard today about 17 people killed in Khabul in an armored bus by a suicide bomber who rammed it with a vehicle carrying explosives, including US soldiers and civilian contractors. I thought how easily that could have been you. It wasn't , but they were someone's child and/or father or mother. Prayers up for all of them and especially for you. Keep your head down. I meant what I said about your employer pulling strings to get you into a good hospital when you are through. You have definitely gone beyond the call of duty and deserve the very best care. Say the word and I will personally write every Congressman, Senator and the President with your story and petition them on your behalf.

We are a little sad tonight. We haven't seen the tuxedo cat for two days. It was a little cold Friday night, so I'm afraid he went into someone's garage to get warm and got closed in. This is what happened with our last outdoor cat. Just didn't show up one morning.

I heard about the Kabul attack, sad and scary at the same time. If I were to go to Kabul I’d have to convoy between the bases in spite of what my employer said. They’re so close together there aren’t flights between them. I doubt I’ll end up there just because of what they said about me not having to ride convoys. It would look kind of funny if I end up there after that. Not to mention what you folks would do the first time I said I was going to get on one. Besides, I’ve already used up 8 of my 9 lives….

I appreciate the offer of a letter campaign, but sure hope it doesn't come to that. I do agree that they'll need to do something, I can't live the rest of my life with my chest feeling like it does right now. Or my head like this, either.

I sure hope tuxedo kitty shows back up.

Originally Posted by Glock26girl

Bob, prayers for tuxedo cat to make it home safely. I am in agreement with you on her employer promising to get her into a good hospital when she is through...and the fact that she has gone beyond the call of duty and deserves the very best care! I'm on board to write letters, too!

How are you doing today, Wolfe?

I'm doing about the same as I have been since I agreed to go back there, seems I'm back to square one in some ways. Last night the nightmares weren't quite as intense as the last several days, but still nasty. Can someone just knock me in the head so I don't dream for a while?

While you're at it, please keep praying for Silent_Runner.

[BobInTX]

I don't remember either. I'll look at last pm and see if it jogs my memory.

[Lady Glock]

Wolfe...did you get a PM from be about Ranger and Blaster? Sent about a week ago.

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

I don't remember either. I'll look at last pm and see if it jogs my memory.

Seems I'm not the only one around here with CRS.

At least I have an excuse, all these meds do mess with my memory and fuzzy up my head.

Originally Posted by Lady Glock

Wolfe...did you get a PM from be about Ranger and Blaster? Sent about a week ago.

Got it, and answered it twice. Both times the message got 'ate' before I could get it sent. I'll try again soon, just been having a rough time lately and haven't written much of anything to anyone.

[Lady Glock]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Seems I'm not the only one around here with CRS.

At least I have an excuse, all these meds do mess with my memory and fuzzy up my head.





Got it, and answered it twice. Both times the message got 'ate' before I could get it sent. I'll try again soon, just been having a rough time lately and haven't written much of anything to anyone.

No problem, just wanted to make sure it didn't get lost in cyberspace since your pm box was full for a while.

[23skidoo]

Ever so gentle Sweetheart.

[BobInTX]

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

[Glock26girl]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

Yay!!!

How are you, Wolfe?

[Lady Glock]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

I'm so glad to hear that!! Hug him once for me!!!!

[23skidoo]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

Originally Posted by Lady Glock

I'm so glad to hear that!! Hug him once for me!!!!

Once for me too! I'm glad he came back.

[BobInTX]

I would but he still won't let me touch him

[Silent_Runner]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Yeah, I'll be trying to get my phone working once I'm wherever I'm going to be. I'm working on the feeling better part, so is my doc and terrorist. Shrink too, from the mental part of it. My doc went ahead and raised my Fentanyl dose to the max. He'd said he was hoping to avoid that, but didn't like the amount of pain I've been having. (Neither do I!) My terrorist slacked off on his abuse the last couple days, he said he can't really prep me to travel anymore, I just have to be careful and hope I don't aggravate my injury. My shrink, well, she's got her hands full. Give her credit though, she's trying to help with the fear and nihgtmares. She keeps trying to tell me I don't have to do this, but I feel like I do. After all, I said I would.





I heard about the Kabul attack, sad and scary at the same time. If I were to go to Kabul I’d have to convoy between the bases in spite of what my employer said. They’re so close together there aren’t flights between them. I doubt I’ll end up there just because of what they said about me not having to ride convoys. It would look kind of funny if I end up there after that. Not to mention what you folks would do the first time I said I was going to get on one. Besides, I’ve already used up 8 of my 9 lives….

I appreciate the offer of a letter campaign, but sure hope it doesn't come to that. I do agree that they'll need to do something, I can't live the rest of my life with my chest feeling like it does right now. Or my head like this, either.
.

Wolfe I doubt anyone likes the amount of pain you have been feeling. I wish there was something that could be done for you besides pump you full of narcotics. Your shrink is right in that you do not have to do this and I really think you should reconsider. You probably did not expect your pain and other problems to flare up like they have when you agreed to go back. Perhaps you should explain things to your employer.

BobInTX you can count me in on a letter writing campaign if it is needed. I think they should bring Wolfe home on a first class flight with nothing but the best and take her straight to the best care available anywhere with no concern for the cost. I will happily pay my share for that.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

Please post a picture of your newly returned cat so we can celebrate. I also thank you all for the prayers.

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I figured you’d have something to say about all of the first 4 answers, something about not taking that chance…. So now it’s OK to go on a convoy?
I can't help but notice the irony in your sig line now. It used to be that you folks would dogpile me to get me to do something I didn't want to do, now some of you are dogpiling me to get me to NOT do something you don't want me to do and I don’t want to do either.

Wolfe we are still dogpiling you because we want you to come home and recover properly. And you already know it is not OK for you to go on any convoys! Are you traveling or just having troubles where you are? You have not checked in and we are worried about you.

Originally Posted by Glock26girl

Wolfe, I don't know what anyone else is saying to you, but I know what I said..."that it might be healing for you to go back to Afghanistan." Honey, this decision is totally up to you. If you want to go and feel strongly about it, then you need to do what you want to do, but if in your heart you know that you don't want to go, then don't do it! We all love you and I bet there isn't a one of us who actually WANTS you to go, but we are trying to be supportive and let you make up your own mind.

Glock26girl you said it very well. None of us actually want her to go there and at least some of us really think she should not have given in to the pressure to go but we all pray she will come home safely. We also pray that her mental health does not suffer from going back there.

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Lady Glock

No problem, just wanted to make sure it didn't get lost in cyberspace since your pm box was full for a while.

I cleaned a bunch of PM's out. I'll clean a bunch more once I catch up answering some I'm way over due.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

Originally Posted by Glock26girl

Yay!!!

How are you, Wolfe?

I'll just say that I've been better. Right now I'm wishing I was anywhere but here getting ready to travel to Afghanistan. I'm thinking thoughts I haven't thought much in a little while. A couple demons need a fresh bashing.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

I would but he still won't let me touch him

But he will let you give him treats and take pics, right? Speaking of pics, you should post the one you just sent me. Last night I was laying in bed wondering why I'm even still here and getting really depressed thinking about leaving the base I've been on for so long, thinking of the things I'll miss, and just wanting to give up and go home when I saw that email. Guess I needed that reminder.

Originally Posted by Silent_Runner

Wolfe I doubt anyone likes the amount of pain you have been feeling. I wish there was something that could be done for you besides pump you full of narcotics. Your shrink is right in that you do not have to do this and I really think you should reconsider. You probably did not expect your pain and other problems to flare up like they have when you agreed to go back. Perhaps you should explain things to your employer.

Right now even the meds aren't knocking the pain down enough, and they can't give me any more to travel with. No, I didn't expect to be as scared and upset as I am right now, or for my chest to flare up like this before I even get on the first flight. My shrink says it's because I'm tense as hell and thrashing a lot during the nightmares. I'm seriously second-guessing myself and wondering if it's too late to back out now.

BobInTX you can count me in on a letter writing campaign if it is needed. I think they should bring Wolfe home on a first class flight with nothing but the best and take her straight to the best care available anywhere with no concern for the cost. I will happily pay my share for that.


Wolfe we are still dogpiling you because we want you to come home and recover properly. And you already know it is not OK for you to go on any convoys! Are you traveling or just having troubles where you are? You have not checked in and we are worried about you.

You might get your wish. I typed up a long explaination of things happening right now and what's going through my head, but decided to delete it. I just don't know if I can make myself board that plane from Kuwait to Bagram


Glock26girl you said it very well. None of us actually want her to go there and at least some of us really think she should not have given in to the pressure to go but we all pray she will come home safely. We also pray that her mental health does not suffer from going back there.

It feels like it has, and I'm right back where I started from, but my shrink says this will pass. I hope she's right. My doc is saying the same thing, so maybe they're right.

[AK_Stick]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I'll just say that I've been better. Right now I'm wishing I was anywhere but here getting ready to travel to Afghanistan. I'm thinking thoughts I haven't thought much in a little while. A couple demons need a fresh bashing.

Hiding will do you for a spell. But eventually you need to face those demons.


Besides, I don't think any demons really want to mess with you, you're tough.

[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I cleaned a bunch of PM's out. I'll clean a bunch more once I catch up answering some I'm way over due.










I'll just say that I've been better. Right now I'm wishing I was anywhere but here getting ready to travel to Afghanistan. I'm thinking thoughts I haven't thought much in a little while. A couple demons need a fresh bashing.





But he will let you give him treats and take pics, right? Speaking of pics, you should post the one you just sent me. Last night I was laying in bed wondering why I'm even still here and getting really depressed thinking about leaving the base I've been on for so long, thinking of the things I'll miss, and just wanting to give up and go home when I saw that email. Guess I needed that reminder.





It feels like it has, and I'm right back where I started from, but my shrink says this will pass. I hope she's right. My doc is saying the same thing, so maybe they're right.

My daughter in-law has good timing sending me those pics. Sometimes I don't know why I do the things I do as I'm doing them, but have learned not to argue with the feeling.

You mean a lot to me even though we've never met. I wish you weren't going, but you are so you have to be strong. Just know that God is with you there. It doesn't matter where "there" is because he is there in your heart. I'm praying for your protection, healing and strength.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1:9 NIV)

[23skidoo]

Hi Sweetheart! I'm wearing my Johnny Bench jersey tonight so those pointy head demons had best pick on someone else tonight! The sleep of the just Sweetheart.

Miss S_R; it was good to see you on here today, still praying for you and Miss LG.

[Angry Fist]

[MB-G26]

Right now even the meds aren't knocking the pain down enough, and they can't give me any more to travel with. No, I didn't expect to be as scared and upset as I am right now, or for my chest to flare up like this before I even get on the first flight. My shrink says it's because I'm tense as hell and thrashing a lot during the nightmares. I'm seriously second-guessing myself and wondering if it's too late to back out now. ... I just don't know if I can make myself board that plane from Kuwait to Bagram.

I have a serious question in my mind as to whether, even though hypothetically "they" could be the bestestest greatestest most brilliant medical people on the plant, just HOW exactly it is that "they" will (a) be able to (b) actually give a damn enough to (c) actually bother to - step right into the shoes of the treating people you have NOW and have had.

Just because some quadruple star and cluster and whatever megga doctor/shrink picks up your file and leafs through it, scanning the complicated contents and history doesn't, in my mind, ensure that you are going to get SQUAT for situation-specific medical/psy care.

Would you consider NOT going as NOT a "backing out" but, rather, perhaps, a making a different and better plan?

There's just too many hands in the soup, and I don't trust a one of them. Not.A.One.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((love you))))))))))))))))))))))))

[MB-G26]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Tuxedo Cat just showed up!! He looks okay. He'd been gone a week.

[Magnus2131]

http://www.troopsfirstfoundation.org/int_exit.php

[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by MB-G26

I love it!

[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Speaking of pics, you should post the one you just sent me. Last night I was laying in bed wondering why I'm even still here and getting really depressed thinking about leaving the base I've been on for so long, thinking of the things I'll miss, and just wanting to give up and go home when I saw that email. Guess I needed that reminder.

Here's the pic. It came to me with the caption "Good morning!" Her eyes have changed from brown to grey.

[Glock26girl]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Here's the pic. It came to me with the caption "Good morning!" Her eyes have changed from brown to grey.

Bob, she is a beautiful little blessing!!!

Wolfe, how are you doing? We are all still praying. We love you.