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Old 10-17-2011, 19:47   #8101
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they pulled out the GUILT CARD.

BAD on them!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes.

I thought that was underhanded too.

I can't help but think other factors were in her mind.

I also believe both you and LW have wonderful hearts.




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I'm not sure I really decided anything. More like being along for the ride and it hasn't all sunk in yet.
Follow your instincts. Find your path. Heal.
Don't let anyone talk you or guilt you into something you don't want to do.
You have wonderful friends here that care about you.
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Old 10-18-2011, 19:11   #8102
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Hi Sweetheart! <<<<At the plate with his cane ready to play homerun derby with the demons. The GT posse is on deck..... The sleep of the just Sweetheart.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:
Batter up! Swing away, there's a few of them demons that need a little 'education'. Hopefully the'll get the hint and leave me alone!



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That's interesting nightmares are reacting to stress.

Maybe u do need hot tubs and foot rubs.
I think maybe you're right. Too bad I can't have them over here. For all the time I've spent being afraid to come home, right now I wish I could. It's the less scary option.



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I give awesome footrubs, and being a female, it would be totally non-stimulating...just relaxing and therapeutic (sp).

Hope you are well...sure am sorry to hear they roped you into going back where it all began. It can't be good for your mental health to be going back there. I was really looking forward to seeing you stateside soon : (
You know, I'd take you up on those footrubs. That is, when Engineer wasn't volunteering. : supergrin:

No, from what's been happening the last few days I don't think it's any good for my mental health at all. My shrink does seem to think this flare-up in my nightmares and PTSD symptoms will subside, though. At least that's what she tells me.

I'll make sure I get to see you when I do get Stateside.



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And what's the deal w/people sending you crappy PMs? : steamed:
A couple people second-guessing me, which I don't blame them because I've been doing the same thing all along. And one person who's convinced I only care about the money. Oh well, I can't please everyone.



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j.h.c.
Joint Helicopter Command?

THE GUILT THING??? REALLY, I MEAN, COME ON!!, THE GUILT THING????
Yeah, they got me with that.

Going to store now...... liquor sales time cut off is 2am.
Drink one for me, wouldya? A real tall, strong one.



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I hadn't thought about it until now, but it might actually be therapeutic for Wolfe to go back to where it all happened...face her worst fears. I would personally like her back here, but this could end up being very healing, in addition to giving her more time to heal up before returning to the States. I really can't believe I am saying this, though. You are just the most incredible woman, Wolfe!!
Me? Incredible? No, I'm just someone who's scared out of her wits and trying to heal even though it seems I never will. Nothing incredible about me at all.

As for facing my worst fears, ready or not, that's going to happen. That demon names Afghanistan is showing his face. One thing I've noticed in the last few days is I'm afraid of everything again. There's an Afghani with an AK-47 behing every bunker, MRAP, T-wall, etc. I'd never lost the heightened sense of awareness of everything around me, to the point that other people sometimes didn't like walking around with me, but it's back at super high levels. You don't even want to hear about the nightmares.



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Maybe so, but what's the fun in that??? : dunno:
[color=blue] OK, not stimulating, but my feet would LOVE a good rub.


L_W, as far as the wisdom of heading back to Afghanistan, I hope you have made the right decision. I sure don't know if it is the right choice or not. I just hope you heal fast(er) and stay safe and strong.
I sure as hell don't know either, in fact I'm thinking not, but I'm going. I do thank you, I'm trying.



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You are completely right. Yet, at the same time, and while I don't want to seem to be discussing SHE as though SHE weren't in the proverbial room........... it's so complicated - and it sure sounds like when they turned a deaf ear to her pleading to be returned home, they pulled out the GUILT CARD.

BAD on them!!!!!!!!!!!!

A clear-headed decision is ONE thing; being guilted BACK into something One is in no way yet well medically or psychologically post-trauma healed from........ *sigh* Playing the GUILT CARD in this particular scenario, ON THE BACK of deeply rooted survivor guilt, all kinds of guilt, which are still readily eating away One's insides???

Un effing forgivable. imho.

LW, babydoll....... ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))
I get what you're saying, but I don't think they were really thinking of all that. Management Stateside is aware of my problems, but don't know or care to know specific details. All they were concerned about while I was here was that I got the job done in spite of the extremely high amount of time I spent at the hospital, shrink, or physical terrorist.

back, I need it right now.



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Yes.

I thought that was underhanded too.

I can't help but think other factors were in her mind.

I also believe both you and LW have wonderful hearts.
Thank you for that, you have a wonderful heart too.


Follow your instincts. Find your path. Heal.
Don't let anyone talk you or guilt you into something you don't want to do.
You have wonderful friends here that care about you.
That's pretty much it.
Too late, I already did. I'm hoping some good will come out of it. I'll be facing my worse fears, as G26girl noted. Maybe I can lick one of the demons in my head just by staring him down.

Wonderful friends like you?
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Old 10-19-2011, 12:24   #8103
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She ain't happy, she's scared to death.


I'm asking God to send a guy like this with you:

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Let me know if you see him. I've no doubt he was with you the last time.
Oh my. I do believe Wolfe would love to see that her guardian angel looks like that.

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... 'twas a "she" decision, not a "we" decision.

We should respect it.

I can't say what the future will bring. The present, we take day by day.
I agree with respecting it but that does not mean we have to like it. I am very worried about her right now.

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You are completely right. Yet, at the same time, and while I don't want to seem to be discussing SHE as though SHE weren't in the proverbial room........... it's so complicated - and it sure sounds like when they turned a deaf ear to her pleading to be returned home, they pulled out the GUILT CARD.

BAD on them!!!!!!!!!!!!

A clear-headed decision is ONE thing; being guilted BACK into something One is in no way yet well medically or psychologically post-trauma healed from........ *sigh* Playing the GUILT CARD in this particular scenario, ON THE BACK of deeply rooted survivor guilt, all kinds of guilt, which are still readily eating away One's insides???

Un effing forgivable. imho.

LW, babydoll....... ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))
They seems to know the one thing to say that would get her to go. I think it might have had the same effect even before she was shot because of the person she is. She wants to help others.

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Yes.

I thought that was underhanded too.

I can't help but think other factors were in her mind.

I also believe both you and LW have wonderful hearts.
I believe that you have a wonderful heart too.
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I mean, Iím mentally ill, not mentally deficient! There's a difference between psycho and stupid.
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Old 10-19-2011, 13:01   #8104
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Hi Sweetheart! Miss G26Girl is right, you are incredible. Here are some extra gentle hugs for you. As for the demons, my favorite baseball player when I was a kid was Johnny Bench, so tonight I'll be wearing my #5 Reds jersey so that I may properly dispatch those pointy headed demons!
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Old 10-20-2011, 18:46   #8106
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Oh my. I do believe Wolfe would love to see that her guardian angel looks like that.: supergrin:
Geeee, what ever would make you think a thing like that?

I agree with respecting it but that does not mean we have to like it. I am very worried about her right now.
You're not the only one, but I've made it this far, so I'll survive.

They seems to know the one thing to say that would get her to go. I think it might have had the same effect even before she was shot because of the person she is. She wants to help others.
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Yep, I do and it's gotten me in trouble before. If fact, isn't that what got me out where I could get shot in the first place? You'd think I'd learn my lesson by now....



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Hi Sweetheart! Miss G26Girl is right, you are incredible. Here are some extra gentle hugs for you.: hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou: As for the demons, my favorite baseball player when I was a kid was Johnny Bench, so tonight I'll be wearing my #5 Reds jersey so that I may properly dispatch those pointy headed demons!
I think some of you folks are just a bit biased, I'm just an average person.

As for these demons, I hope you hit a home run on a few of their heads. Start with Nightmares, and get Breathing Attack and Chest Pain while you're at it. One good thing, my doc put me back on Xanax and increased the dose. He said that's temporary, but it seemed to tame the nightmares a little last night. I woke back up too quickly tonight to tell.
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Old 10-20-2011, 19:28   #8107
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I believe that you have a wonderful heart too.
You spoil me.

<<< Has no feet to rub. So sad.
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I find it very difficult NOT to unleash the full force of all my thoughts........ and yes, they are quite wide-ranging and would choke the naught word filter into an overload.

Just four words, and then I'm backing away for the thread for now, out of an abundance of caution:

MEGGA FREAKING PTSD TRIGGER??????????

backing away now..................

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Old 10-21-2011, 19:27   #8109
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I just saw a news story where they are taking wounded vets back to Iraq, in uniform, to get some closure. ( Operation Proper Exit )

They interviewed a young troop:
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"When you were coming over here, for Operation Proper Exit," Pelley asked, "Did you wonder whether you were doing the right thing?"


"Sometimes," Cornford replied. "My wife brought up a good point when I told her I wanted to do it. It's, like, 'What if it makes it worse? What if it brings it all back?' Because for a while I would sleepwalk, and scream in my sleep, and stuff, and I haven't been doin' that a lot lately, but when I found out I was coming back, for about a week before, I started doin' it again, and it really scared her."


Cornford's nightmares are rooted in Easter Sunday 2007, when he was just 18 years old. His platoon assaulted an enemy machine gun nest. He was hit in the left shoulder. His lieutenant, Phillip Neel, sprinted forward to help, but was cut down.

Cornford returned fire and threw two hand grenades into the machine gun nest. Then, he carriet Lt. Neel a mile to a Medevac helicopter than took them both to a field hospital. Neel didn't make it, and Cornford cannot forgive himself.



Cornford said he came back, "To try and let it go. It's something that haunts me every day."

"I see his face every time I close my eyes to go to sleep at night," Cornford said. "I blame myself a lot, because I got hit first, and he was coming to get me. I want to be able to lay it to rest, like he is. 'Cause I know he's in a better place. I just, I know he would want me to."
Sound familiar?

You are not alone.

Have you tried contacting any vets that are going through similar issues?
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You spoil me. : embarassed:
Just telling the truth.

<<< Has no feet to rub. So sad.
You still do, it'll just take longer for them to get there.

Will you still rub them when I get back?



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I find it very difficult NOT to unleash the full force of all my thoughts........ and yes, they are quite wide-ranging and would choke the naught word filter into an overload.

Just four words, and then I'm backing away for the thread for now, out of an abundance of caution:

MEGGA FREAKING PTSD TRIGGER??????????

backing away now..................

Love you babydoll!
You don't have to leave, and don't worry about the cuss-word filter. It's been throughly tested.

But seriously, don't feel like you have to back away. I get what you're saying and I, my doc and shrink have all talked about it. They've got mixed feelings, like I do, but think with proper care from my shrink over there it actually might do me some good to face that demon. The both emphasize that it's really important for me to get in to see my shrink and doc when I first get there, preferably the first day. My shrink said she wished she could have her replacement meet my plane in Bagram. OK, that's a bit much, but you get her point.

Trigger? Did you say TRIGGER?!?
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Old 10-21-2011, 20:53   #8111
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Don't answer if you can't, but are you going to be in the same place you were in 2008?

Thanks for the compliment. I was really just sighing about your situation.

I'm working on my deck this weekend. I replaced one set of steps the weekend before I got the shingles. This time I'm working on the steps on the other side. I can't hardly move tonight. After this I'm gonna put down some additional screws. Then I got to strip off old stain and powerwash, then put down new stain. I have to finish by Nov 14 because that's when they are putting our Christmas lights on the deck railings so you can see them across the lake. Between falling leaves and wild kitty cats it should be fun staining.

Speaking of shingles, I think I got lucky with a mild case. They are about gone. They didn't get in my eyes, and I can rub and scratch my head without it hurting. I'm getting a haircut Monday. Pretty scraggly looking, especially for a bald guy that keeps it trimmed close.

Oh yeah. Go Rangers. 1-1 in World Series with Cards.
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You spoil me.

<<< Has no feet to rub. So sad.
When Wolfe does get herself back here you will get to make up for lost time. Are you ready for that?

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I find it very difficult NOT to unleash the full force of all my thoughts........ and yes, they are quite wide-ranging and would choke the naught word filter into an overload.

Just four words, and then I'm backing away for the thread for now, out of an abundance of caution:

[]MEGGA FREAKING PTSD TRIGGER??????????[/SIZE]

backing away now..................

Love you babydoll!
You may have a point here about her PTSD. We can only pray that her shrinks knew what they were doing when they agrees that she could go.

I also agree with Wolfe that you need not back off just because you have strong opinions. Some of us agree with you.

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I just saw a news story where they are taking wounded vets back to Iraq, in uniform, to get some closure. ( Operation Proper Exit )

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Sound familiar?

You are not alone.

Have you tried contacting any vets that are going through similar issues?
I had heard a little about that but not the operation name. I hope it does them good to go back. Wolfe that story does sound similar to yours. I truly hope you do gain some closure by going back there since you are going anyway.

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Trigger? Did you say TRIGGER?!?
Wolfe I think she meant a different kind of trigger.

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Don't answer if you can't, but are you going to be in the same place you were in 2008?


Speaking of shingles, I think I got lucky with a mild case. They are about gone. They didn't get in my eyes, and I can rub and scratch my head without it hurting. I'm getting a haircut Monday. Pretty scraggly looking, especially for a bald guy that keeps it trimmed close.

Oh yeah. Go Rangers. 1-1 in World Series with Cards.
I will have to let her answer for sure but I doubt she can go back to where she was shot. She will have to remain at a larger base that has full medical facilities. She told me the smaller ones do not. They had better not try to send out traveling around again.

You were lucky that your case of shingles was mild. It could have been a lot worse and I'm glad it was not.
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Old 10-22-2011, 12:37   #8113
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Hiya Wolf. I read the first page and then this page. I actually thought that this was about the Glock Parts supplier with the same name.

Are you in the military or a contractor? Are you in the USA yet? If not why?

I am glad you survived, I am assuming that you were hit from an AK47. I was lamenting about work and a customer visit this week. You know, how could I have done better and reflecting on the things I said. And then I read this story and realized that it is all insignificant compared to what you are going through. I have no idea who you are what you look like or what your name is, but I wish I could encapsulate you in a protective bubble and float you somewhere where you feel all safe and cozy so you could work on the emotional aspect of the injuries. Take care.
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Hi Sweetheart! You're anything but average! I'll get as many of those pointy head demons as I can. The sleep of the just Sweetheart.
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Hi Sweetheart! I saw something today on Facebook that made me think of you. "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have."
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You still do, it'll just take longer for them to get there.

Will you still rub them when I get back?
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When Wolfe does get herself back here you will get to make up for lost time. Are you ready for that?
It's a nice dream . . . the kind of dream LW needs.

But reality says LW has a lot more options with better prospects.

I do have one more item I need to send - when she settles in. Its the item I wrote the poem about - the item I lost and found and said I would give to her.
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I'm a lot more average than you realize, you're just biased.

And I hope you can take out some of these damn demons. Start with Nightmares and Chest Pain tonight.



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Old 10-23-2011, 19:49   #8124
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I had to split this into 2 posts because of the 6 smiley limit.


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I don't dare tell that kitty anything it doesn't want to hear, so I'll say I'm just peachy.



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There's a lot of different things you might be hiding from in here, was it Blast's kitty?




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I just saw a news story where they are taking wounded vets back to Iraq, in uniform, to get some closure. ( Operation Proper Exit )

They interviewed a young troop:
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"When you were coming over here, for Operation Proper Exit," Pelley asked, "Did you wonder whether you were doing the right thing?"


"Sometimes," Cornford replied. "My wife brought up a good point when I told her I wanted to do it. It's, like, 'What if it makes it worse? What if it brings it all back?' Because for a while I would sleepwalk, and scream in my sleep, and stuff, and I haven't been doin' that a lot lately, but when I found out I was coming back, for about a week before, I started doin' it again, and it really scared her."


Cornford's nightmares are rooted in Easter Sunday 2007, when he was just 18 years old. His platoon assaulted an enemy machine gun nest. He was hit in the left shoulder. His lieutenant, Phillip Neel, sprinted forward to help, but was cut down.

Cornford returned fire and threw two hand grenades into the machine gun nest. Then, he carriet Lt. Neel a mile to a Medevac helicopter than took them both to a field hospital. Neel didn't make it, and Cornford cannot forgive himself.



Cornford said he came back, "To try and let it go. It's something that haunts me every day."

"I see his face every time I close my eyes to go to sleep at night," Cornford said. "I blame myself a lot, because I got hit first, and he was coming to get me. I want to be able to lay it to rest, like he is. 'Cause I know he's in a better place. I just, I know he would want me to."
He and I got one thing in common, my dreams also had started to subside a little, and are back with a vengeance right now. I also see Greg's face when I close my eyes.

Sound familiar?

You are not alone.

Have you tried contacting any vets that are going through similar issues?
Yeah, there's some similarities there, except the fact that I didn't do anything heroic to try to save Greg. In fact I'm glad I wasn't conscious to see him die. I imagine actually watching would have only made it worse. Even the version I see in my mind's eye is bad enough. Of course if my being conscious would have stopped him from coming out then I wish I was.

I've had some contact with others who have been injured and some have PTSD, but none who had experiences like mine because most of them got sent home. I'm the only one I know of that was hurt anywhere near this badly and stayed or came back here.



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Don't answer if you can't, but are you going to be in the same place you were in 2008?

Thanks for the compliment. I was really just sighing about your situation.

I'm working on my deck this weekend. I replaced one set of steps the weekend before I got the shingles. This time I'm working on the steps on the other side. I can't hardly move tonight. After this I'm gonna put down some additional screws. Then I got to strip off old stain and powerwash, then put down new stain. I have to finish by Nov 14 because that's when they are putting our Christmas lights on the deck railings so you can see them across the lake. Between falling leaves and wild kitty cats it should be fun staining.

Speaking of shingles, I think I got lucky with a mild case. They are about gone. They didn't get in my eyes, and I can rub and scratch my head without it hurting. I'm getting a haircut Monday. Pretty scraggly looking, especially for a bald guy that keeps it trimmed close.

Oh yeah. Go Rangers. 1-1 in World Series with Cards.
I'm going to have to see more pics of the finished deck, especially with the lights on. And you're right, you got lucky. I hate to think what could have happened if it had gotten in your eyes.

Gotcha on the sighing, I have a few times myself. At times I'm just mad at myself for falling for it and saying I'd go, other times I'm just scared as hell. Still other times I dare to hope it'll do me some good or at least not hurt me any more.

As for where I'll be, I'm not sure. Most likely I'll be stationed at Bagram, which is where I was in 2008. But I'd gone on a mission to one base and was on my way to a second base when I got shot. My employer swears I won't be going off on missions and definitely no convoys, so I won't end up at a little craphole hoping the choppers fly there.

BTW, game 4 is on at the DFAC now.



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Hiya Wolf. I read the first page and then this page. I actually thought that this was about the Glock Parts supplier with the same name.

Are you in the military or a contractor? Are you in the USA yet? If not why?

I am glad you survived, I am assuming that you were hit from an AK47. I was lamenting about work and a customer visit this week. You know, how could I have done better and reflecting on the things I said. And then I read this story and realized that it is all insignificant compared to what you are going through. I have no idea who you are what you look like or what your name is, but I wish I could encapsulate you in a protective bubble and float you somewhere where you feel all safe and cozy so you could work on the emotional aspect of the injuries. Take care.
Hi ArcAngel, nope, I'm no gun parts supplier. He didn't buy a vowel for the end of his name like I did.

I'm was active duty when I stopped that AK-47 round, not I'm a contractor. I'm also still in the military, just inactive. Some mistakes were made that caused me to be sent to Iraq instead of Walter Reed, and later I chose to stay because I've gotten more and better care here in the last 2 years than the VA could give me.

Thanks, I'm glad I survived, most of the time at least. You're not alone when you think back to something you said or did and realize you could have handled it better. I do it myself. As for not knowing what I look like, you're not missing much. I'm OK looking, but nothing special. That's such I nice wish you have, I love it. Thank you.



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Hi Sweetheart! I saw something today on Facebook that made me think of you. "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.": hugs:: hearts:: smootchie:: iloveyou:
You may have a point about having no choice but to be strong, but I haven't done it alone. Or even close to alone. I couldn't have.



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It's a nice dream . . . the kind of dream LW needs.
You mean it's only a dream?!?

But reality says LW has a lot more options with better prospects.

I do have one more item I need to send - when she settles in. Its the item I wrote the poem about - the item I lost and found and said I would give to her.
And why are you saying you aren't a good prospect? Methinks you underestimate yourself. Drastically underestimate yourself.



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What ya hiding from?
Whatever it is, I hope she comes out from behind that couch soon. And how are YOU doing?
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RIP my friends Greg and Florence, see you again on the other side.
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Old 10-23-2011, 20:04   #8125
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Yeah, I meant your main base, not the FOB you left the convoy from.

My dr's nurse said her husband had the shingles on his head recently and they got behind his eyes. He had to be hospitalized. I finally got a haircut today.

If they do ask u to go on a convoy you know what the answer is, don't you?

Game 4 definitely better than game 3. I guess you're not sleeping tonight?
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