[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Love you too, okie.





I think I slipped back a step or 20 today. At least I didn't fall all the way back down.... yet. But I'm getting in a few stoned posts elsewhere.

Hope you're having a great birthday. Sorry Hajji-net wouldn't cooperate with my phone call, but you got to hear me piss and moan for a few minutes anyway.











Yeah, an hour or a minutes at a time. It's been one of those days, my chest is just screaming, partly because of rain rolling in and out of here. I'm stoned on my nighttime cocktail, Oxy, and extra pain meds and should have been asleep 3 hours ago. I was going to talk about my session with my shrink today, but doubt I could get a coherent thought out, so I'll hold that for tomorrow.

Don't forget to tell us.

[sawgrass]

I think about you every day, regardless of logging into GT.

15 hr days are.... State comp in addition. Cross your fingers for Sat.

You are doing this LW! One day you and I are going to have a beer and talk
about GT.

skidoo you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers


ETA: my sister is doing...seems to be responding to the antibiotic, but is complaining of chest pain this pm. LOVE and HATE.......doc's...meds...?

[23skidoo]

Hearing your voice was a great birthday present, thank you! Miss Sawgrass, your sister remains in my prayers as I keep my fingers crossed for your students; Miss S_R, you, of course, remain in my prayers also Miss Lone, the sleep of the just eluded you last night but tonight I hope you make it your own. No squeezing

[sawgrass]

Originally Posted by 23skidoo

Hearing your voice was a great birthday present, thank you! Miss Sawgrass, your sister remains in my prayers as I keep my fingers crossed for your students; Miss S_R, you, of course, remain in my prayers also Miss Lone, the sleep of the just eluded you last night but tonight I hope you make it your own. No squeezing

It looks like a belated Happy Birthday is in order!

[SouthernGal]

Originally Posted by sawgrass

It looks like a belated Happy Birthday is in order!

+1

[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by sawgrass

It looks like a belated Happy Birthday is in order!

Happy Birthday! We're glad you're still with us to celebrate it.

[engineer151515]

Originally Posted by Silent_Runner

.........

Those are very pretty. If you insist on treating Wolfe so well you may never get rid of her. Of course I would have to come visit her.


...........

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Maybe he won't mind that.

mi casa es su casa


But I live in a very simple summer house (code for cold in the winter) within walking distance of beautiful Mobile Bay.

Therefore - the hot tub will have to be something on the order of a Casino overnight in Biloxi, MS.

I hope these accommodations would be acceptable.

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by engineer151515

mi casa es su casa


But I live in a very simple summer house (code for cold in the winter) within walking distance of beautiful Mobile Bay.

Therefore - the hot tub will have to be something on the order of a Casino overnight in Biloxi, MS.

I hope these accommodations would be acceptable.

I'll admit I had to google that first sentence. But I can dig that. We'll just have to find another way to stay warm in the winter.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Happy Birthday! We're glad you're still with us to celebrate it.

No kidding! Don't scare us like that again!

Originally Posted by 23skidoo

Hearing your voice was a great birthday present, thank you!: hearts: Miss Sawgrass, your sister remains in my prayers as I keep my fingers crossed for your students; Miss S_R, you, of course, remain in my prayers also: grouphug: Miss Lone, the sleep of the just eluded you last night but tonight I hope you make it your own. No squeezing

Glad you enjoyed your birthday call, in spite of the bad connection and me being stoned out of my mind and having a hard time talking. I was just thinking this morning that if I had some other people's phone #'s and their birthdays I could make more birthday calls. Silent_Runner appreciates the thoughts and prayers and say hello to everyone.

I hope I get more sleep tonight than I did last night, but it's not happening yet. This weather is driving me nuts, along with the abuse my physical terrorist heaped on me today. He wasn't trying to abuse me so badly, it just seemed that everything he did or had me do hurt even worse than usual. Do once again I'm stoned on pain meds, but I'm making sure I don't start posting like I did last night.

Originally Posted by sawgrass

I think about you every day, regardless of logging into GT.

15 hr days are.... State comp in addition. Cross your fingers for Sat.

You are doing this LW! One day you and I are going to have a beer and talk
about GT.: hugs:: hugs:

skidoo you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers


ETA: my sister is doing...seems to be responding to the antibiotic, but is complaining of chest pain this pm. LOVE and HATE.......doc's...meds...?

Glad to hear Sis is responding, she had us worried there for a few. I've got my fingers crossed for Saturday if that's what you want. I know you had mixed thoughts on that.

I'm doing this yeah. Days like this I think I'm going the wrong way, but I have to have made some progress in order to have some to lose. The thought od tipping a beer while talking about GT sounds great, but why stop at one beer?

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Don't forget to tell us.

I've been trying to keep a clear head tonight and not succeeding, but I'm going to try to tell about yesterday's session anyway. I'm pretty doped up on my pain and sleep meds and still not asleep. This cursed weather won't make up it's mind. It was raining earlier, now it's cold as hell.

My shrink did his usual asking what I wanted to talk about yesterday, but when I couldn't really come up with anything he started pushing me on the subject of Greg and my guilt. He decided we were going to do a little role playing, so he dragged in a bench and had me lay on it. I couldn't lay face-down like I landed what I was shot, so curling up on my side had to suffice. Then he said that since I couldn't talk and wasn't even conscious that day Greg could hear my thoughts. My job was to convince Greg not to blow cover to save me.

At first it was easy, because Greg had stayed down for around a minute anyway, but the shrink, playing Greg, started out from behind the rocks (his desk) that he'd been safely behind. He came at me in slow motion while I screamed and tried to get him to go back. When the shots were hitting him I was just crying that it was happening that way when he could have stayed safe. Of course I couldn't move to try to protect him, since I couldn't when it actually happened. Damn, I'm crying again.

[23skidoo]

No squeezing Sweetheart. I know the session with your psychiatrist was rough on you. I have no intention of scaring you like I did in July ever again.

[Lady Glock]

Happy belated birthday skidoo. Hugs to you (it's the only present I can offer, sorry)

S_R, prayers for you...up and continous, same for Sawgrass...I hope your sister's recovery is quick and complete!!

[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I'll admit I had to google that first sentence. But I can dig that. We'll just have to find another way to stay warm in the winter.





No kidding! Don't scare us like that again!





Glad you enjoyed your birthday call, in spite of the bad connection and me being stoned out of my mind and having a hard time talking. I was just thinking this morning that if I had some other people's phone #'s and their birthdays I could make more birthday calls. Silent_Runner appreciates the thoughts and prayers and say hello to everyone.

I hope I get more sleep tonight than I did last night, but it's not happening yet. This weather is driving me nuts, along with the abuse my physical terrorist heaped on me today. He wasn't trying to abuse me so badly, it just seemed that everything he did or had me do hurt even worse than usual. Do once again I'm stoned on pain meds, but I'm making sure I don't start posting like I did last night.





Glad to hear Sis is responding, she had us worried there for a few. I've got my fingers crossed for Saturday if that's what you want. I know you had mixed thoughts on that.

I'm doing this yeah. Days like this I think I'm going the wrong way, but I have to have made some progress in order to have some to lose. The thought od tipping a beer while talking about GT sounds great, but why stop at one beer?





I've been trying to keep a clear head tonight and not succeeding, but I'm going to try to tell about yesterday's session anyway. I'm pretty doped up on my pain and sleep meds and still not asleep. This cursed weather won't make up it's mind. It was raining earlier, now it's cold as hell.

My shrink did his usual asking what I wanted to talk about yesterday, but when I couldn't really come up with anything he started pushing me on the subject of Greg and my guilt. He decided we were going to do a little role playing, so he dragged in a bench and had me lay on it. I couldn't lay face-down like I landed what I was shot, so curling up on my side had to suffice. Then he said that since I couldn't talk and wasn't even conscious that day Greg could hear my thoughts. My job was to convince Greg not to blow cover to save me.

At first it was easy, because Greg had stayed down for around a minute anyway, but the shrink, playing Greg, started out from behind the rocks (his desk) that he'd been safely behind. He came at me in slow motion while I screamed and tried to get him to go back. When the shots were hitting him I was just crying that it was happening that way when he could have stayed safe. Of course I couldn't move to try to protect him, since I couldn't when it actually happened. Damn, I'm crying again.

Interesting session.

My birthday is in May.

[engineer151515]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

..... He decided we were going to do a little role playing...........

That's really rough.

[Silent_Runner]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Interesting session.

That is an understatement. Wolfe are you doing OK now?

Originally Posted by Lady Glock

Happy belated birthday skidoo. Hugs to you (it's the only present I can offer, sorry)

S_R, prayers for you...up and continous, same for Sawgrass...I hope your sister's recovery is quick and complete!!

Thank you for the prayers Lady Glock. 23skidoo I missed your birthday but hope you had a happy one.

Originally Posted by 23skidoo

No squeezing Sweetheart. I know the session with your psychiatrist was rough on you. I have no intention of scaring you like I did in July ever again.

You had better not scare any of of like that again.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

mi casa es su casa


But I live in a very simple summer house (code for cold in the winter) within walking distance of beautiful Mobile Bay.

Therefore - the hot tub will have to be something on the order of a Casino overnight in Biloxi, MS.

I hope these accommodations would be acceptable.

You live near the beach? Do you have a plan in place to get Wolfe out of the water? If not you had better formulate one.

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Lady Glock

S_R, prayers for you...up and continous, same for Sawgrass...I hope your sister's recovery is quick and complete!!

I'm still praying for Silent_Runner, sawgrass' sister, Bob's parents-in-law, and others, too.

Originally Posted by 23skidoo

: hugs: No squeezing Sweetheart. I know the session with your psychiatrist was rough on you. : hugs: I have no intention of scaring you like I did in July ever again.

I think if you pull another Skidoo your sister will take a bat to you long before I could ever even send Silent_Runner up to clobber you, so you'd better make good on your word.

Originally Posted by Silent_Runner

That is an understatement. Wolfe are you doing OK now?

I'm still hanging in, does that count?

You live near the beach? Do you have a plan in place to get Wolfe out of the water? If not you had better formulate one.

All he'll have to do is sit on the beach and offer a foot rub. He knows I'll come out then.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

That's really rough.

I know. Can I have some more of those hugs?

Originally Posted by BobInTX

Interesting session.

My birthday is in May.

Interesting? Well, you could say that I guess. I'm still having a rough time from having to relive it like that. Shrink wanted to ask me questions today about specific things I said trying to stop Greg from blowing cover. Like what was I thinking when I said this, how did I feel about having said that, etc. One of the things I yelled when he was coming out in super-slow motion was that he wasn't hurt and he would have a much better life than I ever would, because I'd already been shot and might die anyways. I said several other things trying to convince him to stay down, but we all know that failed.

[BobInTX]

I believe it would have failed at the time, too.

[engineer151515]

Originally Posted by Silent_Runner

You live near the beach? Do you have a plan in place to get Wolfe out of the water? If not you had better formulate one.

Fairhope does have a small sandy access to Mobile Bay and a wonderful Pier. That is a nice Sunday walk which I should be doing more often.

The classic "beaches" are further south at Gulf Shores - within easy truck/cycle range. About 35 miles.

You can sun and nap on the beach, get home, shower, have a nice dinner and still wake up in your own bed to do it again the next day.

[engineer151515]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I know. Can I have some more of those hugs?

[Glock26girl]

Wolfe, you are in my prayers. I can't imagine how hard it was to reenact what happened with Greg. You really are one tough girl. I pray that the "rest" of your life can be more peaceful, less stressful and full of love and joy. It really is possibly, sweetheart. Super gentle

[sawgrass]

Originally Posted by Glock26girl

Wolfe, you are in my prayers. I can't imagine how hard it was to reenact what happened with Greg. You really are one tough girl. I pray that the "rest" of your life can be more peaceful, less stressful and full of love and joy. It really is possibly, sweetheart. Super gentle

^^^^^^This. Good post.

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by BobInTX

My birthday is in May. : whistling:

Hmmmmmmmm, let's see if I can google your phone #..........

Hey, I found the shreiff's # that way, why not your's?

Originally Posted by engineer151515

Fairhope does have a small sandy access to Mobile Bay and a wonderful Pier. That is a nice Sunday walk which I should be doing more often.

The classic "beaches" are further south at Gulf Shores - within easy truck/cycle range. About 35 miles.

You can sun and nap on the beach, get home, shower, have a nice dinner and still wake up in your own bed to do it again the next day.

Damn, that sounds like something I need to be doing, a daily walk to the beach. And with good company, too.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

Originally Posted by Glock26girl

Wolfe, you are in my prayers. I can't imagine how hard it was to reenact what happened with Greg. You really are one tough girl. I pray that the "rest" of your life can be more peaceful, less stressful and full of love and joy. It really is possibly, sweetheart. Super gentle : hugs:: hugs:

When we first started it didn't seem all that bad, but when I saw 'Greg' come out from cover, then go down it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was crying and screaming at the same time and it felt like it was really happening. I think that's what my shrink wanted, too. I have to see him again tomorrow and I'm dreading it. I wonder what he'll pull out of his hat this time.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

I believe it would have failed at the time, too.

Unfortunately you're probably right. Damn.

[BobInTX]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Hmmmmmmmm, let's see if I can google your phone #..........

Hey, I found the shreiff's # that way, why not your's?

Or, you could just ask me...




When we first started it didn't seem all that bad, but when I saw 'Greg' come out from cover, then go down it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was crying and screaming at the same time and it felt like it was really happening. I think that's what my shrink wanted, too. I have to see him again tomorrow and I'm dreading it. I wonder what he'll pull out of his hat this time.



Unfortunately you're probably right. Damn.

So, what happened today?

Are you still noticing your nightmares coming later in the night?

When will Dr. Nice be back?

[engineer151515]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Damn, that sounds like something I need to be doing, a daily walk to the beach. And with good company, too.

Well, you said it.

It does sound like something you need to be doing.

[Silent_Runner]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

When we first started it didn't seem all that bad, but when I saw 'Greg' come out from cover, then go down it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was crying and screaming at the same time and it felt like it was really happening. I think that's what my shrink wanted, too. I have to see him again tomorrow and I'm dreading it. I wonder what he'll pull out of his hat this time.

Unfortunately you're probably right. Damn.

Yes I think he is right. Nothing you could have said or done would have stopped Greg from trying to save you that day. It was his decision and not yours.

How did you session go today? I hate to say this but I hope he made you cry again today. I know that sounds cruel but you really do need to get everything out of you.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

Fairhope does have a small sandy access to Mobile Bay and a wonderful Pier. That is a nice Sunday walk which I should be doing more often.

The classic "beaches" are further south at Gulf Shores - within easy truck/cycle range. About 35 miles.

You can sun and nap on the beach, get home, shower, have a nice dinner and still wake up in your own bed to do it again the next day.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

Well, you said it.

It does sound like something you need to be doing.

Oh my. You may come to regret these words Engineer151515.

Originally Posted by sawgrass

I think about you every day, regardless of logging into GT.

15 hr days are.... State comp in addition. Cross your fingers for Sat.

ETA: my sister is doing...seems to be responding to the antibiotic, but is complaining of chest pain this pm. LOVE and HATE.......doc's...meds...?

sawgrass I'm glad to see your sister is making progress and I thank you for the prayers. I thank everyone for the prayers.

Originally Posted by BobInTX

So, what happened today?

Are you still noticing your nightmares coming later in the night?

When will Dr. Nice be back?

I was wondering these things myself.

[faawrenchbndr]

Greg did what he did because that's what he was trained to do......save a buddy!


He did what many would have done, what I would have done, what many would have done.
You were spared he was not. It was destiny. You must move on. He is with you every day.
I do not really know you, many do not know you. However, many feel your pain.
Many can understand how you feel. We are here for you. You, like Jack, are an
inspiration for me. You are faced with such physical diversity, EVERY day, but you push on!

I am not a doctor, I am not an educated man. I am "Joe average" I got my degree in
life from the "school of hard knocks!" I see determination, grit and drive in you!
You are a great person, you should not feel guilty for Greg's death. He broke cover
to aid a comrade. Many have done it, many WILL do it.


Bracelets in the making.........promise with all my heart!

[Lone_Wolfe]

Faa, I'm not ignoring you, I'm just trying not to think about that right now. I will tomorrow, and I can't wait to see those bulletproof bracelets. BTW, can you make a time machine to go with them?

Oh, and Happy Birthday!

Originally Posted by Silent_Runner

Yes I think he is right. Nothing you could have said or done would have stopped Greg from trying to save you that day. It was his decision and not yours.

How did you session go today? I hate to say this but I hope he made you cry again today. I know that sounds cruel but you really do need to get everything out of you.

Oh my. You may come to regret these words Engineer151515.: rofl:
.

Hey!!!!! You quit trying to scare Engineer off! Or are you trying to steal him away?

Today he didn't focus on Greg or anything to do with me getting shot and all that stuff. We all got some sad news this morning, Skidoo's brother died shortly before midnight his time zone.
http://glocktalk.com/forums/showthre...9#post17120599

My shrink was more focused on that today and trying to see if I needed to cry about that. I'm sure he'll be back to the usual torment tomorrow.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

Fairhope does have a small sandy access to Mobile Bay and a wonderful Pier. .......

How far are you from the pier? And does it have a rose garden in the middle of the parking lot? I think I've been there on my bike several years ago.

Originally Posted by engineer151515

Well, you said it.

It does sound like something you need to be doing.

Yep it does. But you know I've got no beach here.........

Originally Posted by BobInTX

So, what happened today?

Are you still noticing your nightmares coming later in the night?

When will Dr. Nice be back?

My doc was due back today, but I didn't see him. He may just not have been around when I went in to see my terrorist. No change the last few nights in my nightmares, but I've been getting very little sleep, especially the last few days. BTW, my terrorist made me cry today. Who wants to chase him around with a bat?

My shrink didn't tear into me bad today, I think he cut me a break because I went in with the news that Skidoo's brother had died just hours before. I really think he had something else up his sleeve, but instead he asked be a bunck of stuff about Skidoo's family and any effect this has on me.

He asked how I found out (his sister's FB page), had I met the brother (yes), how many times (once). When did we meet (when I flew to WV in September), where did we meet (at the airport, then all of them that came to meet me went out to dinner). Why did they all want to meet me like that (because I sent the police to Skidoo's house when he had his stroke). Did I think he was a good person (yes), did they seem like a close family (very), are they anything like my family (night and day), would I trade my family for one like that (I think so), plus a bunch more stuff that I can't think of now. He also asked me to pass along his condolences to the family and friends.