[faawrenchbndr]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Awwwww, darn. Being grounded aint fun. But you can wax my Mustang if you want. Plus I wouldn't complain if you rub MY feet.

I'm doing OK today, got lots of sleep last night.

What was that stuff they gave me anyway.....

If rubbing your tootsies would make it all better,....... dang skippy,
send me a majic carpet Sweetie,....... I'm there.

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Beware Owner

That's very true! Dreams and nightmares are a way of your mind trying to tell you something, the only way to get it to shut up is to get the message. Work on that, baby, you have to internalize it, and those nightmares will go away.

Yep, I've been down this road before. Except it wasn't anything bad before that I needed to understand. What I can't get my mind around is why I can't internalize this like I need to. I wonder, why is it I don't "know" something I'd have a hard time denying. From the day I woke up in the hospital I've heard it enough times. The doctor that was there when I first woke up said "Welcome back. I didn't think we were going to be able to save you". Wished I didn't have tubes going down my throat, I would have cussed him good.
I found out a few months ago that I have the nickname of "Cat" around the hospital because I supposedly used up over half of my nine lives...

You'd think I'd have figured it out by now...

Originally Posted by Bumpadrum

.................................................................................................... ....
"Almost dying" really means one thing ... you are alive and kicking!
To strong to die. Spitting in the Devils eye.

It means God has a plan for your life.

You are still in His playbook and He is going to run a few plays where He needs you to throw a perfect block, knock down a pass, sack the QB, or recover a fumble for great field position. You might be on the bench right now (you took a big hit for the team) but in a couple of plays you get the ball back, go back on offense, and it will be time to gain some yardage and score a touchdown.

Never fear. Never. We will hold them until you get back on the field.

The team is rallying for you, and the fans in the stands are screaming your name! There's plenty of time on the clock!
We haven't even reached halftime but there's no doubt who is going to win this game.

And the cheerleading squad is deep and loud.
Go Lone_Wolfe Go! Go Lone_Wolfe Go! Go Lone_Wolfe Go! Go Lone_Wolfe Go!


Sorry about the football metaphor. I tried to come up with something featuring cats, but I'm a dog guy.

Yep, I agree with you Bumpadrum. If I had my way I'd blow off what happened and say "Whatever, those bastards tried, but they didn't kill me".

The problem is my subconcious doesn't see it that way. At since it has the capability of throwing nightmares at me damn near every time I try to sleep guess who has the say in the matter?

So that means I got to listen to my shrink and try to do what she says. She says I need to think about it, talk about it, deal with it. As much as I don't want to.....

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Beware Owner

You are priviledged to be one of the few people who can make a tear drop from my eyes. God works in mysterious ways, but He works. I made a prayer for you when I typed the message. You need not wonder any more and see for yourself what else is in store for you. There's nothing more convincing that a person's own life experience to know something exists or actually happens. For what I have read on your posts and other's speaking of you, you're such a down to earth person, have such a big heart, and transparently seem like a friend anyone should have, and the friend we really all need. I'd happily say that these are probably good reasons this thread has accrued so many pages, because that's who you are, and one of the few awesome and outstanding human beings this world needs, and we recognize that. You have a strong spirit, and ours are with you to provide you with that extra ounce of strength you need. There's no reason in this world why you should feel alone, because you're not. There will come the day where you'll sit back and laugh it all off, and every day that passes, you're one day closer to it. Pray, not like He's some mythical creature, but like He's there and listening. You'll be surprised at what you get. From me, receive a big hug and a brotherly kiss on the forehead, you've been an angel that's watched over us all.

Well you’ve brought way more than a single teardrop to my eyes, believe me. Several times. I’ve never been one to claim to understand God’s ways at all, in fact I’m completely stumped most of the time. Including what he has in mind for me or why I’m still here. You know, I read this post and think I’m no different than anyone here. We just try to do the best we can in our lives. I try to be a good person, sometimes I fail badly. Sometimes I do something that I think isn’t anything special, but someone else does. There’s a certain feeling you get from being able to do something for someone without expecting a thing in return that you can’t get any other way. The irony of that is sometimes I feel selfish when I do something for someone just because it makes me feel that good. I don’t think my heart is any bigger than yours or so many other people who have stood beside me in spirit recently, who have sent me things that they didn’t have to, who have taken time to write me words of encouragement or even getting on me case when I’ve made some bad choices.

I haven’t felt strong in months but lately as I’ve read what you and others say to me it gives my strength. I really don’t feel so alone anymore, even though I’m so far away from the world I knew. Strange as it may seem when I saw that vision of people the other night I had the impression of good will coming from them. Ever since then I’ve been thinking about that and wondering if somehow you people could have had anything to do with that.

I will tell you one thing though, I will never just laugh this off. Another soldier was killed in the attack. It hurts me even more because he had made it to safety. He only blew cover to try to get to me to get me out of the line of fire. I part of me will always feel to blame for what he did, although I wasn’t even aware of it happening. Yes, it will get easier, but never funny. I’m looking forward to that hug, and you have been an angel to me.

[Magnus2131]

None of it is your fault LW. You just need to convince yourself of that. Continued prayers for you lady.

[deadite]

Wow, am I late to get on this bus or what? I just read what happened and I'm very sorry for your injuries and lost friend.

I hope, as time goes on, that you'll be able to cut yourself some slack with the guilty feelings you're having. They're normal, but I hope you'll let them go. They will serve you no real purpose except as a reminder of the value of human life.

Best wishes and get well soon. Thank you for your service.

deadite

[RussP]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

...I haven’t felt strong in months but lately as I’ve read what you and others say to me it gives my strength. I really don’t feel so alone anymore, even though I’m so far away from the world I knew. Strange as it may seem when I saw that vision of people the other night I had the impression of good will coming from them. Ever since then I’ve been thinking about that and wondering if somehow you people could have had anything to do with that. ...

[DoubleDog]

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Dd~

[DoubleDog]

If okie sends kisses, I do too!

Get well soon...(there should be a flower bouquet emoticon)

DD~

[Slobberchops]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

BTW, that pup in your avatar is gorgeous! Do you have a bigger pic you can PM me?

hope your inbox has room!

[engineer151515]

Today's hugs

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by RussP

Hmmmmmm, I did notice one of the men there was exceptionally handsome......


Perhaps now I know why.

[okie]

Mornin LW honey,here's some more kisses for ya sweetheart

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by okie

Mornin LW honey,here's some more kisses for ya sweetheart

Evenin' Sweetheart, thank you for the kisses.

[okie]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Evenin' Sweetheart, thank you for the kisses.

Oh my I forgot your ahead of us in timeYour very welcome my dear lady

[Beware Owner]

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Yep, I've been down this road before. Except it wasn't anything bad before that I needed to understand. What I can't get my mind around is why I can't internalize this like I need to. I wonder, why is it I don't "know" something I'd have a hard time denying. From the day I woke up in the hospital I've heard it enough times. The doctor that was there when I first woke up said "Welcome back. I didn't think we were going to be able to save you". Wished I didn't have tubes going down my throat, I would have cussed him good.

I found out a few months ago that I have the nickname of "Cat" around the hospital because I supposedly used up over half of my nine lives...

You'd think I'd have figured it out by now...

Still don't think you're strong, even after having attained a nickname like that? You have a whole hospital surprised at your ability to come back....

You probably can't figure it out because what you think you're not denying is something you simply haven't understood yet. I believe you may be looking the wrong way to figure out those dreams, and, if I may, somehow it seems that your answer lies below:

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I will tell you one thing though, I will never just laugh this off. Another soldier was killed in the attack. It hurts me even more because he had made it to safety. He only blew cover to try to get to me to get me out of the line of fire. I part of me will always feel to blame for what he did, although I wasn’t even aware of it happening. Yes, it will get easier, but never funny. I’m looking forward to that hug, and you have been an angel to me.

He willingly sacrificed his life to save yours. Key word, willingly. You didn't know it was happening, but he had your back. I'm sure you or anybody else in his place would've done the same. Instead of being mad or feeling guilty, which I'm sure he wouldn't want you to feel, check this, feel happy. Why? Although it may sound counterintuitive, feel happy because that's what he would've wanted. He wanted you to live, and here you are. Honor him. Give him what he gave his life for, your happy life! There's no bigger love than he who gives his life for his friends. That's in a good book I like to read. I know that if I had given my life for you, and you were feeling guilty, shoot, I'd be coming back to let you know, don't do it! That's not what I died for! You didn't kill him, so you should thank him and give him back what he gave his life for. That part that feels blame for it must go. He died for you to live, and live happy, honor him. Live and be happy.

When my adoptive mother died, I cut my hair and took my loops off. She said that wasn't what a christian man should look like. I disagreed with her, but, to this day, my hair will stay short and nothing shall enter my earlobes, out of respect, this is my way of honoring her in my life. That's what she would've wanted. She was terminally ill with cancer, and she was fighting it to the bitter end because she wanted to see me one last time. Due to hard economic times, I couldn't go, so I sent someone in my name. When they walked in her room, the first thing that came out of their mouth was that the were coming in representation of me. Mind you, this lady had been almost comatose for months. Her eyes opened, her heart rate went up, moved her hand, and, by the end of the speech, she passed. All she was waiting for was one last goodbye from me. She fought death and life for it, how could I let that continue? I received the call while the heart monitor was flat, so I knew. From that day till now, I've embodied everything she taught me. She would never want me to give up. He wouldn't want you to give up, heck, he didn't give up at all! He fought life and death too! You owe it to him to fight harder, for the both of you.

We have to give back, and I make sure to think and pray for you daily. Really, not just words, but take the time to do it. You have given to all of us. You're special to all of us.

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

Well you’ve brought way more than a single teardrop to my eyes, believe me. Several times. I’ve never been one to claim to understand God’s ways at all, in fact I’m completely stumped most of the time. Including what he has in mind for me or why I’m still here. You know, I read this post and think I’m no different than anyone here. We just try to do the best we can in our lives. I try to be a good person, sometimes I fail badly. Sometimes I do something that I think isn’t anything special, but someone else does. There’s a certain feeling you get from being able to do something for someone without expecting a thing in return that you can’t get any other way. The irony of that is sometimes I feel selfish when I do something for someone just because it makes me feel that good. I don’t think my heart is any bigger than yours or so many other people who have stood beside me in spirit recently, who have sent me things that they didn’t have to, who have taken time to write me words of encouragement or even getting on me case when I’ve made some bad choices.

Do you know that we're our own worse judges? We're usually much harsher with ourselves than most the rest of the world. Also, beauty is at the eye of the beholder, sooooo....if we say you're strong and special, git over it! This is how we see you. To be selfish is to do things that only benefit yourself, but, in helping others, this is obviously not the case. To feel like you're selfish for feeling good about helping someone else only serves to further prove your abnegation. Case closed, your honor! Listen, we all fail. Big whoop. Sue me. What matters is if we recognize that and move on to do the right thing. What makes you good is your desire to do good. In my eyes, you're a hero. A true to life living legend hero.

Originally Posted by Lone_Wolfe

I haven’t felt strong in months but lately as I’ve read what you and others say to me it gives my strength. I really don’t feel so alone anymore, even though I’m so far away from the world I knew. Strange as it may seem when I saw that vision of people the other night I had the impression of good will coming from them. Ever since then I’ve been thinking about that and wondering if somehow you people could have had anything to do with that.

Good! Then that means that what we're doing is working. You have a spirit, we all do. We're probably closer to you than to most people who surround us. Hopefully you'll much more of those visions as time passes, and have them become a reality. We're all with you every step of the way.

[Silent_Runner]

Wow! These are things I have wanted to say but could never find the words.

Wolfe you had BETTER read this. Over and over!

[Zonny]

Originally Posted by Beware Owner

He willingly sacrificed his life to save yours. Key word, willingly. You didn't know it was happening, but he had your back. I'm sure you or anybody else in his place would've done the same. Instead of being mad or feeling guilty, which I'm sure he wouldn't want you to feel, check this, feel happy. Why? Although it may sound counterintuitive, feel happy because that's what he would've wanted. He wanted you to live, and here you are. Honor him. Give him what he gave his life for, your happy life! There's no bigger love than he who gives his life for his friends. That's in a good book I like to read. I know that if I had given my life for you, and you were feeling guilty, shoot, I'd be coming back to let you know, don't do it! That's not what I died for! You didn't kill him, so you should thank him and give him back what he gave his life for. That part that feels blame for it must go. He died for you to live, and live happy, honor him. Live and be happy.

THIS!!!! Very well put Beware Owner. Thank you.

What would his life have been, had he done nothing and watched you die?

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Silent_Runner

Wow! These are things I have wanted to say but could never find the words.

Wolfe you had BETTER read this. Over and over!

I'm readin' I'm readin'.


Damn monitor blurred up again......

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Zonny

THIS!!!! Very well put Beware Owner. Thank you.

What would his life have been, had he done nothing and watched you die?

Ummmm, his life would have been longer?


OK, bad attempt at humor, I know.


What makes it even tougher is from what I'm told he never even made it to where I was. I just wish he'd stayed down. Luckily for me the convoy commander made the medic stay down until after the lead stopped flying.

Bur I understand your point and would have done the same thing.

[Magnus2131]

LW. if I pull a lady from a burning building and I die and she lives, is it her fault I died? I know, I know, you've probable been told that before. It just so happened to be his time and not yours. Use the time he gave you and live it! If you give in to the demons, then what he did means nothing. I know, I'm sounding like a broken record. Continued prayers for you lady.

[Beware Owner]

Hope you're doing ok today, princess.

[faawrenchbndr]

I Sweetie,..... how goes it?
Hope you've had a better last few days. I've wanted to let you know
how special you are. You have brought together MANY members for one
very good and special cause,...... supporting YOU!

Everything happens for a reason, many reasons are unknown. You are
truly a miracle. I hope and pray for your health and happiness. Remember,
you are a true Wonder Woman!

[Slobberchops]

Hope you had a good day!

Sleepy_puppy

[okie]

More kisses for ya LW honey

[Lone_Wolfe]

Originally Posted by Slobberchops

Hope you had a good day!

Sleepy_puppy

back! It aint over, but it's going OK. Love the pooch pics.

Originally Posted by okie

More kisses for ya LW honey

Thank you okie. You are a Sweetheart!