After doing a lot of reading and handling multiple other guns, I decided to get a PM9. I think I made the correct decision.
Can I shoot it as well as my G19? no.
Can I shoot it well enough for a micro-CCW? yes.
One day, I shall come back. Yes, I shall come back. Until then, there must be no regrets, no tears, no anxieties. Just go forward in all your beliefs and prove to me that I am not mistaken in mine.