I know it may not be much consolation at the moment but time is a great healer. It won't make the pain go away but time heals. Trust me I know. I lost my youngest sister and mother on Christmas eve when I was 13. It was hell but as time went by, it helped heal the wound. The scar is still there but the wound healed if you know what I mean.
You'll be in my prayers. Hang in there.