In all honesty Wolfe I find re-discovering who you are appealing.
How many times in your life have you heard 'if I only knew then, what I know now'? Well somewhere inside you do. It's still there, yet you have this beautiful second chance. You owe it to yourself, somehow I believe you know that or I think you would have given up a long time ago. I know we joke about these demons, but these demons are your thoughts and you have complete control over them. Fortunately because of who you are, you are cared for and a few cards have fallen into place. Lone_Wolfe you are getting better and the world is going to be a better place because of it. Everything that is part of this miracle of you still having life is going to go forward.
You're a blessing to all of us who get to know you a little bit. Thank you LW.